Chapter 35: What was behind Mr Pancks on Little Dorrit's Hand

Little Dorrit

by Charles Dickens

It was at this time that Mr Pancks, in discharge of his compact
with Clennam, revealed to him the whole of his gipsy story, and told
him Little Dorrit's fortune. Her father was heir-at-law to a great
estate that had long lain unknown of, unclaimed, and accumulating.
His right was now clear, nothing interposed in his way, the
Marshalsea gates stood open, the Marshalsea walls were down, a few
flourishes of his pen, and he was extremely rich.

In his tracking out of the claim to its complete establishment,
Mr Pancks had shown a sagacity that nothing could baffle, and a
patience and secrecy that nothing could tire. 'I little thought,
sir,' said Pancks, 'when you and I crossed Smithfield that night, and
I told you what sort of a Collector I was, that this would come of
it. I little thought, sir, when I told you you were not of the
Clennams of Cornwall, that I was ever going to tell you who were of
the Dorrits of Dorsetshire.' He then went on to detail. How, having
that name recorded in his note-book, he was first attracted by the
name alone. How, having often found two exactly similar names, even
belonging to the same place, to involve no traceable consanguinity,
near or distant, he did not at first give much heed to this, except
in the way of speculation as to what a surprising change would be
made in the condition of a little seamstress, if she could be shown
to have any interest in so large a property. How he rather supposed
himself to have pursued the idea into its next degree, because there
was something uncommon in the quiet little seamstress, which pleased
him and provoked his curiosity.

How he had felt his way inch by inch, and 'Moled it out, sir'
(that was Mr Pancks's expression), grain by grain. How, in the
beginning of the labour described by this new verb, and to render
which the more expressive Mr Pancks shut his eyes in pronouncing it
and shook his hair over them, he had alternated from sudden lights
and hopes to sudden darkness and no hopes, and back again, and back
again. How he had made acquaintances in the Prison, expressly that
he might come and go there as all other comers and goers did; and how
his first ray of light was unconsciously given him by Mr Dorrit
himself and by his son; to both of whom he easily became known; with
both of whom he talked much, casually ('but always Moleing you'll
observe,' said Mr Pancks): and from whom he derived, without being at
all suspected, two or three little points of family history which, as
he began to hold clues of his own, suggested others. How it had at
length become plain to Mr Pancks that he had made a real discovery of
the heir-at-law to a great fortune, and that his discovery had but to
be ripened to legal fulness and perfection. How he had, thereupon,
sworn his landlord, Mr Rugg, to secrecy in a solemn manner, and taken
him into Moleing partnership.

How they had employed John Chivery as their sole clerk and
agent, seeing to whom he was devoted. And how, until the present
hour, when authorities mighty in the Bank and learned in the law
declared their successful labours ended, they had confided in no
other human being.

'So if the whole thing had broken down, sir,' concluded Pancks,
'at the very last, say the day before the other day when I showed you
our papers in the Prison yard, or say that very day, nobody but
ourselves would have been cruelly disappointed, or a penny the
worse.'

Clennam, who had been almost incessantly shaking hands with him
throughout the narrative, was reminded by this to say, in an
amazement which even the preparation he had had for the main
disclosure smoothed down, 'My dear Mr Pancks, this must have cost you
a great sum of money.'

'Pretty well, sir,' said the triumphant Pancks. 'No trifle,
though we did it as cheap as it could be done. And the outlay was a
difficulty, let me tell you.'

'A difficulty!' repeated Clennam. 'But the difficulties you
have so wonderfully conquered in the whole business!' shaking his
hand again.

'I'll tell you how I did it,' said the delighted Pancks, putting
his hair into a condition as elevated as himself. 'First, I spent
all I had of my own. That wasn't much.'

'I am sorry for it,' said Clennam: 'not that it matters now,
though. Then, what did you do?'

'Then,' answered Pancks, 'I borrowed a sum of my proprietor.'

'Of Mr Casby?' said Clennam. 'He's a fine old fellow.'

'Noble old boy; an't he?' said Mr Pancks, entering on a series
of the dryest snorts. 'Generous old buck. Confiding old boy.
Philanthropic old buck. Benevolent old boy! Twenty per cent. I
engaged to pay him, sir. But we never do business for less at our
shop.'

Arthur felt an awkward consciousness of having, in his exultant
condition, been a little premature.

'I said to that boiling-over old Christian,' Mr Pancks pursued,
appearing greatly to relish this descriptive epithet, 'that I had got
a little project on hand; a hopeful one; I told him a hopeful one;
which wanted a certain small capital. I proposed to him to lend me
the money on my note. Which he did, at twenty; sticking the twenty
on in a business-like way, and putting it into the note, to look like
a part of the principal. If I had broken down after that, I should
have been his grubber for the next seven years at half wages and
double grind. But he's a perfect Patriarch; and it would do a man
good to serve him on such terms--on any terms.'

Arthur for his life could not have said with confidence whether
Pancks really thought so or not.

'When that was gone, sir,' resumed Pancks, 'and it did go,
though I dribbled it out like so much blood, I had taken Mr Rugg into
the secret. I proposed to borrow of Mr Rugg (or of Miss Rugg; it's
the same thing; she made a little money by a speculation in the
Common Pleas once). He lent it at ten, and thought that pretty high.
But Mr Rugg's a red-haired man, sir, and gets his hair cut. And as
to the crown of his hat, it's high. And as to the brim of his hat,
it's narrow. And there's no more benevolence bubbling out of him,
than out of a ninepin.'

'Your own recompense for all this, Mr Pancks,' said Clennam,
'ought to be a large one.'

'I don't mistrust getting it, sir,' said Pancks. 'I have made
no bargain. I owed you one on that score; now I have paid it. Money
out of pocket made good, time fairly allowed for, and Mr Rugg's bill
settled, a thousand pounds would be a fortune to me. That matter I
place in your hands. I authorize you now to break all this to the
family in any way you think best. Miss Amy Dorrit will be with Mrs
Finching this morning. The sooner done the better. Can't be done
too soon.'

This conversation took place in Clennam's bed-room, while he was
yet in bed. For Mr Pancks had knocked up the house and made his way
in, very early in the morning; and, without once sitting down or
standing still, had delivered himself of the whole of his details
(illustrated with a variety of documents) at the bedside. He now
said he would 'go and look up Mr Rugg', from whom his excited state
of mind appeared to require another back; and bundling up his papers,
and exchanging one more hearty shake of the hand with Clennam, he
went at full speed down-stairs, and steamed off.

Clennam, of course, resolved to go direct to Mr Casby's. He
dressed and got out so quickly that he found himself at the corner of
the patriarchal street nearly an hour before her time; but he was not
sorry to have the opportunity of calming himself with a leisurely
walk.

When he returned to the street, and had knocked at the bright
brass knocker, he was informed that she had come, and was shown
up-stairs to Flora's breakfast-room. Little Dorrit was not there
herself, but Flora was, and testified the greatest amazement at
seeing him.

'Good gracious, Arthur--Doyce and Clennam!' cried that lady,
'who would have ever thought of seeing such a sight as this and pray
excuse a wrapper for upon my word I really never and a faded check
too which is worse but our little friend is making me a, not that I
need mind mentioning it to you for you must know that there are such
things a skirt, and having arranged that a trying on should take
place after breakfast is the reason though I wish not so badly
starched.'

'I ought to make an apology,' said Arthur, 'for so early and
abrupt a visit; but you will excuse it when I tell you the cause.'

'In times for ever fled Arthur,' returned Mrs Finching, 'pray
excuse me Doyce and Clennam infinitely more correct and though
unquestionably distant still 'tis distance lends enchantment to the
view, at least I don't mean that and if I did I suppose it would
depend considerably on the nature of the view, but I'm running on
again and you put it all out of my head.'

She glanced at him tenderly, and resumed:

'In times for ever fled I was going to say it would have sounded
strange indeed for Arthur Clennam--Doyce and Clennam naturally quite
different--to make apologies for coming here at any time, but that is
past and what is past can never be recalled except in his own case as
poor Mr F. said when he was in spirits Cucumber and therefore never
ate it.'

She was making the tea when Arthur came in, and now hastily
finished that operation.

'Papa,' she said, all mystery and whisper, as she shut down the
tea-pot lid, 'is sitting prosingly breaking his new laid egg in the
back parlour over the City article exactly like the Woodpecker
Tapping and need never know that you are here, and our little friend
you are well aware may be fully trusted when she comes down from
cutting out on the large table overhead.'

Arthur then told her, in the fewest words, that it was their
little friend he came to see; and what he had to announce to their
little friend. At which astounding intelligence, Flora clasped her
hands, fell into a tremble, and shed tears of sympathy and pleasure,
like the good-natured creature she really was.

'For goodness sake let me get out of the way first,' said Flora,
putting her hands to her ears and moving towards the door, 'or I know
I shall go off dead and screaming and make everybody worse, and the
dear little thing only this morning looking so nice and neat and good
and yet so poor and now a fortune is she really and deserves it too!
and might I mention it to Mr F.'s Aunt Arthur not Doyce and Clennam
for this once or if objectionable not on any account.'

Arthur nodded his free permission, since Flora shut out all
verbal communication. Flora nodded in return to thank him, and
hurried out of the room.

Little Dorrit's step was already on the stairs, and in another
moment she was at the door. Do what he could to compose his face, he
could not convey so much of an ordinary expression into it, but that
the moment she saw it she dropped her work, and cried, 'Mr Clennam!
What's the matter?'

' Nothing, nothing. That is, no misfortune has happened. I
have come to tell you something, but it is a piece of great good-
fortune.' 'Good-fortune?'

'Wonderful fortune!'

They stood in a window, and her eyes, full of light, were fixed
upon his face. He put an arm about her, seeing her likely to sink
down. She put a hand upon that arm, partly to rest upon it, and
partly so to preserve their relative positions as that her intent
look at him should be shaken by no change of attitude in either of
them. Her lips seemed to repeat 'Wonderful fortune?' He repeated it
again, aloud.

'Dear Little Dorrit! Your father.'

The ice of the pale face broke at the word, and little lights
and shoots of expression passed all over it. They were all
expressions of pain. Her breath was faint and hurried. Her heart
beat fast. He would have clasped the little figure closer, but he
saw that the eyes appealed to him not to be moved.

'Your father can be free within this week. He does not know it;
we must go to him from here, to tell him of it. Your father will be
free within a few days. Your father will be free within a few hours.
Remember we must go to him from here, to tell him of it!'

That brought her back. Her eyes were closing, but they opened
again.

'This is not all the good-fortune. This is not all the
wonderful good-fortune, my dear Little Dorrit. Shall I tell you
more?'

Her lips shaped 'Yes.'

'Your father will be no beggar when he is free. He will want
for nothing. Shall I tell you more? Remember! He knows nothing of
it; we must go to him, from here, to tell him of it!'

She seemed to entreat him for a little time. He held her in his
arm, and, after a pause, bent down his ear to listen.

'Did you ask me to go on?'

'Yes.'

'He will be a rich man. He is a rich man. A great sum of money
is waiting to be paid over to him as his inheritance; you are all
henceforth very wealthy. Bravest and best of children, I thank
Heaven that you are rewarded!'

As he kissed her, she turned her head towards his shoulder, and
raised her arm towards his neck; cried out 'Father! Father!
Father!' and swooned away.

Upon which Flora returned to take care of her, and hovered about
her on a sofa, intermingling kind offices and incoherent scraps of
conversation in a manner so confounding, that whether she pressed the
Marshalsea to take a spoonful of unclaimed dividends, for it would do
her good; or whether she congratulated Little Dorrit's father on
coming into possession of a hundred thousand smelling- bottles; or
whether she explained that she put seventy-five thousand drops of
spirits of lavender on fifty thousand pounds of lump sugar, and that
she entreated Little Dorrit to take that gentle restorative; or
whether she bathed the foreheads of Doyce and Clennam in vinegar, and
gave the late Mr F. more air; no one with any sense of responsibility
could have undertaken to decide. A tributary stream of confusion,
moreover, poured in from an adjoining bedroom, where Mr F.'s Aunt
appeared, from the sound of her voice, to be in a horizontal posture,
awaiting her breakfast; and from which bower that inexorable lady
snapped off short taunts, whenever she could get a hearing, as,
'Don't believe it's his doing!' and 'He needn't take no credit to
himself for it!' and 'It'll be long enough, I expect, afore he'll
give up any of his own money!' all designed to disparage Clennam's
share in the discovery, and to relieve those inveterate feelings with
which Mr F.'s Aunt regarded him.

But Little Dorrit's solicitude to get to her father, and to
carry the joyful tidings to him, and not to leave him in his jail a
moment with this happiness in store for him and still unknown to him,
did more for her speedy restoration than all the skill and attention
on earth could have done. 'Come with me to my dear father. Pray
come and tell my dear father!' were the first words she said. Her
father, her father. She spoke of nothing but him, thought of nothing
but him. Kneeling down and pouring out her thankfulness with
uplifted hands, her thanks were for her father.

Flora's tenderness was quite overcome by this, and she launched
out among the cups and saucers into a wonderful flow of tears and
speech.

'I declare,' she sobbed, 'I never was so cut up since your mama
and my papa not Doyce and Clennam for this once but give the precious
little thing a cup of tea and make her put it to her lips at least
pray Arthur do, not even Mr F.'s last illness for that was of another
kind and gout is not a child's affection though very painful for all
parties and Mr F. a martyr with his leg upon a rest and the wine
trade in itself inflammatory for they will do it more or less among
themselves and who can wonder, it seems like a dream I am sure to
think of nothing at all this morning and now Mines of money is it
really, but you must know my darling love because you never will be
strong enough to tell him all about it upon teaspoons, mightn't it be
even best to try the directions of my own medical man for though the
flavour is anything but agreeable still I force myself to do it as a
prescription and find the benefit, you'd rather not why no my dear
I'd rather not but still I do it as a duty, everybody will
congratulate you some in earnest and some not and many will
congratulate you with all their hearts but none more so I do assure
you from the bottom of my own I do myself though sensible of
blundering and being stupid, and will be judged by Arthur not Doyce
and Clennam for this once so good-bye darling and God bless you and
may you be very happy and excuse the liberty, vowing that the dress
shall never be finished by anybody else but shall be laid by for a
keepsake just as it is and called Little Dorrit though why that
strangest of denominations at any time I never did myself and now I
never shall!'

Thus Flora, in taking leave of her favourite. Little Dorrit
thanked her, and embraced her, over and over again; and finally came
out of the house with Clennam, and took coach for the Marshalsea.

It was a strangely unreal ride through the old squalid streets,
with a sensation of being raised out of them into an airy world of
wealth and grandeur. When Arthur told her that she would soon ride
in her own carriage through very different scenes, when all the
familiar experiences would have vanished away, she looked frightened.
But when he substituted her father for herself, and told her how he
would ride in his carriage, and how great and grand he would be, her
tears of joy and innocent pride fell fast. Seeing that the happiness
her mind could realise was all shining upon him, Arthur kept that
single figure before her; and so they rode brightly through the poor
streets in the prison neighbourhood to carry him the great news.

When Mr Chivery, who was on duty, admitted them into the Lodge,
he saw something in their faces which filled him with astonishment.
He stood looking after them, when they hurried into the prison, as
though he perceived that they had come back accompanied by a ghost
a-piece. Two or three Collegians whom they passed, looked after them
too, and presently joining Mr Chivery, formed a little group on the
Lodge steps, in the midst of which there spontaneously originated a
whisper that the Father was going to get his discharge. Within a few
minutes, it was heard in the remotest room in the College.

Little Dorrit opened the door from without, and they both
entered. He was sitting in his old grey gown and his old black cap,
in the sunlight by the window, reading his newspaper. His glasses
were in his hand, and he had just looked round; surprised at first,
no doubt, by her step upon the stairs, not expecting her until night;
surprised again, by seeing Arthur Clennam in her company. As they
came in, the same unwonted look in both of them which had already
caught attention in the yard below, struck him. He did not rise or
speak, but laid down his glasses and his newspaper on the table
beside him, and looked at them with his mouth a little open and his
lips trembling. When Arthur put out his hand, he touched it, but not
with his usual state; and then he turned to his daughter, who had sat
down close beside him with her hands upon his shoulder, and looked
attentively in her face.

'Father! I have been made so happy this morning!'

'You have been made so happy, my dear?'

'By Mr Clennam, father. He brought me such joyful and wonderful
intelligence about you! If he had not with his great kindness and
gentleness, prepared me for it, father--prepared me for it, father--I
think I could not have borne it.'

Her agitation was exceedingly great, and the tears rolled down
her face. He put his hand suddenly to his heart, and looked at
Clennam.

'Compose yourself, sir,' said Clennam, 'and take a little time
to think. To think of the brightest and most fortunate accidents of
life. We have all heard of great surprises of joy. They are not at
an end, sir. They are rare, but not at an end.'

'Mr Clennam? Not at an end? Not at an end for--' He touched
himself upon the breast, instead of saying 'me.'

'No,' returned Clennam.

'What surprise,' he asked, keeping his left hand over his heart,
and there stopping in his speech, while with his right hand he put
his glasses exactly level on the table: 'what such surprise can be in
store for me?'

'Let me answer with another question. Tell me, Mr Dorrit, what
surprise would be the most unlooked for and the most acceptable to
you. Do not be afraid to imagine it, or to say what it would be.'

He looked steadfastly at Clennam, and, so looking at him, seemed
to change into a very old haggard man. The sun was bright upon the
wall beyond the window, and on the spikes at top. He slowly
stretched out the hand that had been upon his heart, and pointed at
the wall.

'It is down,' said Clennam. 'Gone!'

He remained in the same attitude, looking steadfastly at him.

'And in its place,' said Clennam, slowly and distinctly, 'are
the means to possess and enjoy the utmost that they have so long shut
out. Mr Dorrit, there is not the smallest doubt that within a few
days you will be free, and highly prosperous. I congratulate you
with all my soul on this change of fortune, and on the happy future
into which you are soon to carry the treasure you have been blest
with here--the best of all the riches you can have elsewhere--the
treasure at your side.'

With those words, he pressed his hand and released it; and his
daughter, laying her face against his, encircled him in the hour of
his prosperity with her arms, as she had in the long years of his
adversity encircled him with her love and toil and truth; and poured
out her full heart in gratitude, hope, joy, blissful ecstasy, and all
for him.

'I shall see him as I never saw him yet. I shall see my dear
love, with the dark cloud cleared away. I shall see him, as my poor
mother saw him long ago. O my dear, my dear! O father, father! O
thank God, thank God!'

He yielded himself to her kisses and caresses, but did not
return them, except that he put an arm about her. Neither did he say
one word. His steadfast look was now divided between her and
Clennam, and he began to shake as if he were very cold. Explaining
to Little Dorrit that he would run to the coffee-house for a bottle
of wine, Arthur fetched it with all the haste he could use. While it
was being brought from the cellar to the bar, a number of excited
people asked him what had happened; when he hurriedly informed them
that Mr Dorrit had succeeded to a fortune.

On coming back with the wine in his hand, he found that she had
placed her father in his easy chair, and had loosened his shirt and
neckcloth. They filled a tumbler with wine, and held it to his lips.
When he had swallowed a little, he took the glass himself and
emptied it. Soon after that, he leaned back in his chair and cried,
with his handkerchief before his face.

After this had lasted a while Clennam thought it a good season
for diverting his attention from the main surprise, by relating its
details. Slowly, therefore, and in a quiet tone of voice, he
explained them as best he could, and enlarged on the nature of
Pancks's service.

'He shall be--ha--he shall be handsomely recompensed, sir,' said
the Father, starting up and moving hurriedly about the room. 'Assure
yourself, Mr Clennam, that everybody concerned shall be-- ha--shall
be nobly rewarded. No one, my dear sir, shall say that he has an
unsatisfied claim against me. I shall repay the--hum-- the advances
I have had from you, sir, with peculiar pleasure. I beg to be
informed at your earliest convenience, what advances you have made my
son.'

He had no purpose in going about the room, but he was not still
a moment.

'Everybody,' he said, 'shall be remembered. I will not go away
from here in anybody's debt. All the people who have been--ha-- well
behaved towards myself and my family, shall be rewarded. Chivery
shall be rewarded. Young John shall be rewarded. I particularly
wish, and intend, to act munificently, Mr Clennam.'

'Will you allow me,' said Arthur, laying his purse on the table,
'to supply any present contingencies, Mr Dorrit? I thought it best
to bring a sum of money for the purpose.'

'Thank you, sir, thank you. I accept with readiness, at the
present moment, what I could not an hour ago have conscientiously
taken. I am obliged to you for the temporary accommodation.
Exceedingly temporary, but well timed--well timed.' His hand had
closed upon the money, and he carried it about with him. 'Be so
kind, sir, as to add the amount to those former advances to which I
have already referred; being careful, if you please, not to omit
advances made to my son. A mere verbal statement of the gross amount
is all I shall--ha--all I shall require.'

His eye fell upon his daughter at this point, and he stopped for
a moment to kiss her, and to pat her head.

'It will be necessary to find a milliner, my love, and to make a
speedy and complete change in your very plain dress. Something must
be done with Maggy too, who at present is--ha--barely respectable,
barely respectable. And your sister, Amy, and your brother. And my
brother, your uncle--poor soul, I trust this will rouse
him--messengers must be despatched to fetch them. They must be
informed of this. We must break it to them cautiously, but they must
be informed directly. We owe it as a duty to them and to ourselves,
from this moment, not to let them--hum--not to let them do
anything.'

This was the first intimation he had ever given, that he was
privy to the fact that they did something for a livelihood.

He was still jogging about the room, with the purse clutched in
his hand, when a great cheering arose in the yard. 'The news has
spread already,' said Clennam, looking down from the window. 'Will
you show yourself to them, Mr Dorrit? They are very earnest, and
they evidently wish it.'

'I--hum--ha--I confess I could have desired, Amy my dear,' he
said, jogging about in a more feverish flutter than before, 'to have
made some change in my dress first, and to have bought a-- hum--a
watch and chain. But if it must be done as it is, it--ha-- it must
be done. Fasten the collar of my shirt, my dear. Mr Clennam, would
you oblige me--hum--with a blue neckcloth you will find in that
drawer at your elbow. Button my coat across at the chest, my love.
It looks--ha--it looks broader, buttoned.'

With his trembling hand he pushed his grey hair up, and then,
taking Clennam and his daughter for supporters, appeared at the
window leaning on an arm of each. The Collegians cheered him very
heartily, and he kissed his hand to them with great urbanity and
protection. When he withdrew into the room again, he said 'Poor
creatures!' in a tone of much pity for their miserable condition.

Little Dorrit was deeply anxious that he should lie down to
compose himself. On Arthur's speaking to her of his going to inform
Pancks that he might now appear as soon as he would, and pursue the
joyful business to its close, she entreated him in a whisper to stay
with her until her father should be quite calm and at rest. He
needed no second entreaty; and she prepared her father's bed, and
begged him to lie down. For another half-hour or more he would be
persuaded to do nothing but go about the room, discussing with
himself the probabilities for and against the Marshal's allowing the
whole of the prisoners to go to the windows of the official residence
which commanded the street, to see himself and family depart for ever
in a carriage--which, he said, he thought would be a Sight for them.
But gradually he began to droop and tire, and at last stretched
himself upon the bed.

She took her faithful place beside him, fanning him and cooling
his forehead; and he seemed to be falling asleep (always with the
money in his hand), when he unexpectedly sat up and said:

'Mr Clennam, I beg your pardon. Am I to understand, my dear
sir, that I could--ha--could pass through the Lodge at this moment,
and--hum--take a walk?'

'I think not, Mr Dorrit,' was the unwilling reply. 'There are
certain forms to be completed; and although your detention here is
now in itself a form, I fear it is one that for a little longer has
to be observed too.'

At this he shed tears again.

'It is but a few hours, sir,' Clennam cheerfully urged upon
him.

'A few hours, sir,' he returned in a sudden passion. 'You talk
very easily of hours, sir! How long do you suppose, sir, that an
hour is to a man who is choking for want of air?'

It was his last demonstration for that time; as, after shedding
some more tears and querulously complaining that he couldn't breathe,
he slowly fell into a slumber. Clennam had abundant occupation for
his thoughts, as he sat in the quiet room watching the father on his
bed, and the daughter fanning his face. Little Dorrit had been
thinking too. After softly putting his grey hair aside, and touching
his forehead with her lips, she looked towards Arthur, who came
nearer to her, and pursued in a low whisper the subject of her
thoughts.

'Mr Clennam, will he pay all his debts before he leaves
here?'

'No doubt. All.'

'All the debts for which he had been imprisoned here, all my
life and longer?'

'No doubt.'

There was something of uncertainty and remonstrance in her look;
something that was not all satisfaction. He wondered to detect it,
and said:

'You are glad that he should do so?'

'Are you?' asked Little Dorrit, wistfully.

'Am I? Most heartily glad!'

'Then I know I ought to be.'

'And are you not?'

'It seems to me hard,' said Little Dorrit, 'that he should have
lost so many years and suffered so much, and at last pay all the
debts as well. It seems to me hard that he should pay in life and
money both.'

'My dear child--' Clennam was beginning.

'Yes, I know I am wrong,' she pleaded timidly, 'don't think any
worse of me; it has grown up with me here.'

The prison, which could spoil so many things, had tainted Little
Dorrit's mind no more than this. Engendered as the confusion was, in
compassion for the poor prisoner, her father, it was the first speck
Clennam had ever seen, it was the last speck Clennam ever saw, of the
prison atmosphere upon her.

He thought this, and forebore to say another word. With the
thought, her purity and goodness came before him in their brightest
light. The little spot made them the more beautiful.

Worn out with her own emotions, and yielding to the silence of
the room, her hand slowly slackened and failed in its fanning
movement, and her head dropped down on the pillow at her father's
side. Clennam rose softly, opened and closed the door without a
sound, and passed from the prison, carrying the quiet with him into
the turbulent streets.