Chapter 16

Great Expectations

by Charles Dickens

With my head full of George Barnwell, I was at first disposed to
believe that I must have had some hand in the attack upon my sister,
or at all events that as her near relation, popularly known to be
under obligations to her, I was a more legitimate object of suspicion
than any one else. But when, in the clearer light of next morning, I
began to reconsider the matter and to hear it discussed around me on
all sides, I took another view of the case, which was more
reasonable.

Joe had been at the Three Jolly Bargemen, smoking his pipe, from
a quarter after eight o'clock to a quarter before ten. While he was
there, my sister had been seen standing at the kitchen door, and had
exchanged Good Night with a farm-labourer going home. The man could
not be more particular as to the time at which he saw her (he got
into dense confusion when he tried to be), than that it must have
been before nine. When Joe went home at five minutes before ten, he
found her struck down on the floor, and promptly called in
assistance. The fire had not then burnt unusually low, nor was the
snuff of the candle very long; the candle, however, had been blown
out.

Nothing had been taken away from any part of the house.
Neither, beyond the blowing out of the candle - which stood on a
table between the door and my sister, and was behind her when she
stood facing the fire and was struck - was there any disarrangement
of the kitchen, excepting such as she herself had made, in falling
and bleeding. But, there was one remarkable piece of evidence on the
spot. She had been struck with something blunt and heavy, on the
head and spine; after the blows were dealt, something heavy had been
thrown down at her with considerable violence, as she lay on her
face. And on the ground beside her, when Joe picked her up, was a
convict's leg-iron which had been filed asunder.

Now, Joe, examining this iron with a smith's eye, declared it to
have been filed asunder some time ago. The hue and cry going off to
the Hulks, and people coming thence to examine the iron, Joe's
opinion was corroborated. They did not undertake to say when it had
left the prison-ships to which it undoubtedly had once belonged; but
they claimed to know for certain that that particular manacle had not
been worn by either of the two convicts who had escaped last night.
Further, one of those two was already re-taken, and had not freed
himself of his iron.

Knowing what I knew, I set up an inference of my own here. I
believed the iron to be my convict's iron - the iron I had seen and
heard him filing at, on the marshes - but my mind did not accuse him
of having put it to its latest use. For, I believed one of two other
persons to have become possessed of it, and to have turned it to this
cruel account. Either Orlick, or the strange man who had shown me
the file.

Now, as to Orlick; he had gone to town exactly as he told us
when we picked him up at the turnpike, he had been seen about town
all the evening, he had been in divers companies in several
public-houses, and he had come back with myself and Mr. Wopsle. There
was nothing against him, save the quarrel; and my sister had
quarrelled with him, and with everybody else about her, ten thousand
times. As to the strange man; if he had come back for his two
bank-notes there could have been no dispute about them, because my
sister was fully prepared to restore them. Besides, there had been
no altercation; the assailant had come in so silently and suddenly,
that she had been felled before she could look round.

It was horrible to think that I had provided the weapon, however
undesignedly, but I could hardly think otherwise. I suffered
unspeakable trouble while I considered and reconsidered whether I
should at last dissolve that spell of my childhood, and tell Joe all
the story. For months afterwards, I every day settled the question
finally in the negative, and reopened and reargued it next morning.
The contention came, after all, to this; - the secret was such an old
one now, had so grown into me and become a part of myself, that I
could not tear it away. In addition to the dread that, having led up
to so much mischief, it would be now more likely than ever to
alienate Joe from me if he believed it, I had a further restraining
dread that he would not believe it, but would assort it with the
fabulous dogs and veal-cutlets as a monstrous invention. However, I
temporized with myself, of course - for, was I not wavering between
right and wrong, when the thing is always done? - and resolved to
make a full disclosure if I should see any such new occasion as a new
chance of helping in the discovery of the assailant.

The Constables, and the Bow Street men from London - for, this
happened in the days of the extinct red-waistcoated police - were
about the house for a week or two, and did pretty much what I have
heard and read of like authorities doing in other such cases. They
took up several obviously wrong people, and they ran their heads very
hard against wrong ideas, and persisted in trying to fit the
circumstances to the ideas, instead of trying to extract ideas from
the circumstances. Also, they stood about the door of the Jolly
Bargemen, with knowing and reserved looks that filled the whole
neighbourhood with admiration; and they had a mysterious manner of
taking their drink, that was almost as good as taking the culprit.
But not quite, for they never did it.

Long after these constitutional powers had dispersed, my sister
lay very ill in bed. Her sight was disturbed, so that she saw
objects multiplied, and grasped at visionary teacups and wine-glasses
instead of the realities; her hearing was greatly impaired; her
memory also; and her speech was unintelligible. When, at last, she
came round so far as to be helped down-stairs, it was still necessary
to keep my slate always by her, that she might indicate in writing
what she could not indicate in speech. As she was (very bad
handwriting apart) a more than indifferent speller, and as Joe was a
more than indifferent reader, extraordinary complications arose
between them, which I was always called in to solve. The
administration of mutton instead of medicine, the substitution of Tea
for Joe, and the baker for bacon, were among the mildest of my own
mistakes.

However, her temper was greatly improved, and she was patient.
A tremulous uncertainty of the action of all her limbs soon became a
part of her regular state, and afterwards, at intervals of two or
three months, she would often put her hands to her head, and would
then remain for about a week at a time in some gloomy aberration of
mind. We were at a loss to find a suitable attendant for her, until
a circumstance happened conveniently to relieve us. Mr. Wopsle's
great-aunt conquered a confirmed habit of living into which she had
fallen, and Biddy became a part of our establishment.

It may have been about a month after my sister's reappearance in
the kitchen, when Biddy came to us with a small speckled box
containing the whole of her worldly effects, and became a blessing to
the household. Above all, she was a blessing to Joe, for the dear
old fellow was sadly cut up by the constant contemplation of the
wreck of his wife, and had been accustomed, while attending on her of
an evening, to turn to me every now and then and say, with his blue
eyes moistened, "Such a fine figure of a woman as she once were,
Pip!" Biddy instantly taking the cleverest charge of her as though
she had studied her from infancy, Joe became able in some sort to
appreciate the greater quiet of his life, and to get down to the
Jolly Bargemen now and then for a change that did him good. It was
characteristic of the police people that they had all more or less
suspected poor Joe (though he never knew it), and that they had to a
man concurred in regarding him as one of the deepest spirits they had
ever encountered.

Biddy's first triumph in her new office, was to solve a
difficulty that had completely vanquished me. I had tried hard at
it, but had made nothing of it. Thus it was:

Again and again and again, my sister had traced upon the slate,
a character that looked like a curious T, and then with the utmost
eagerness had called our attention to it as something she
particularly wanted. I had in vain tried everything producible that
began with a T, from tar to toast and tub. At length it had come
into my head that the sign looked like a hammer, and on my lustily
calling that word in my sister's ear, she had begun to hammer on the
table and had expressed a qualified assent. Thereupon, I had brought
in all our hammers, one after another, but without avail. Then I
bethought me of a crutch, the shape being much the same, and I
borrowed one in the village, and displayed it to my sister with
considerable confidence. But she shook her head to that extent when
she was shown it, that we were terrified lest in her weak and
shattered state she should dislocate her neck.

When my sister found that Biddy was very quick to understand
her, this mysterious sign reappeared on the slate. Biddy looked
thoughtfully at it, heard my explanation, looked thoughtfully at my
sister, looked thoughtfully at Joe (who was always represented on the
slate by his initial letter), and ran into the forge, followed by Joe
and me.

"Why, of course!" cried Biddy, with an exultant face. "Don't
you see? It's him!"

Orlick, without a doubt! She had lost his name, and could only
signify him by his hammer. We told him why we wanted him to come
into the kitchen, and he slowly laid down his hammer, wiped his brow
with his arm, took another wipe at it with his apron, and came
slouching out, with a curious loose vagabond bend in the knees that
strongly distinguished him.

I confess that I expected to see my sister denounce him, and
that I was disappointed by the different result. She manifested the
greatest anxiety to be on good terms with him, was evidently much
pleased by his being at length produced, and motioned that she would
have him given something to drink. She watched his countenance as if
she were particularly wishful to be assured that he took kindly to
his reception, she showed every possible desire to conciliate him,
and there was an air of humble propitiation in all she did, such as I
have seen pervade the bearing of a child towards a hard master.
After that day, a day rarely passed without her drawing the hammer on
her slate, and without Orlick's slouching in and standing doggedly
before her, as if he knew no more than I did what to make of it.